First comes love then comes.... Marriage?

I'm feeling a little left out right now. I'm feeling a little bit confused. I'm feeling a little bit like I'm the odd one out with a differing opinion from everyone else. The thing is, I have never been the girl who was attached to a boy and couldn't picture my life without him. Sure, I have had guys I liked and I kept them around for a while but the whole marriage and kids thing never did appeal to me. I never did say "When I grow up, I just want to be a mommy." No. I want a career, I want my own money, I want to be successful, I want to prove certain things to myself. The thought of relying on a man and staying at home all day never was my cup of tea. But here, here, the only thing girls want is to be married. To find a man, to major in early childhood education, to graduate, to marry the summer after they graduate, and have children. Then be a stay at home mom. I just don't understand what the rush is. Whatever happened to establishing yourself in the world? What happened to traveling and experiencing new things? How do you even learn to be independent if you jump from parents support to marriage? Don't get me wrong, marriage would be nice someday. Kids would be nice someday. But right now, I want to figure out who I am and what I want. I want to go to school, get an education, and have my dream job. I want to live on my own for a while. I want to experience life to the fullest before I jump into marriage. Because marriage is forever. Forever is a long time. I still feel weird. Maybe I'm not a true girl at heart because I'm not already setting a wedding date or learning how to cook and clean so I can please my husband someday. Oh well. 

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