First comes love then comes.... Marriage?

I'm feeling a little left out right now. I'm feeling a little bit confused. I'm feeling a little bit like I'm the odd one out with a differing opinion from everyone else. The thing is, I have never been the girl who was attached to a boy and couldn't picture my life without him. Sure, I have had guys I liked and I kept them around for a while but the whole marriage and kids thing never did appeal to me. I never did say "When I grow up, I just want to be a mommy." No. I want a career, I want my own money, I want to be successful, I want to prove certain things to myself. The thought of relying on a man and staying at home all day never was my cup of tea. But here, here, the only thing girls want is to be married. To find a man, to major in early childhood education, to graduate, to marry the summer after they graduate, and have children. Then be a stay at home mom. I just don't understand what the rush is. Whatever happened to establishing yourself in the world? What happened to traveling and experiencing new things? How do you even learn to be independent if you jump from parents support to marriage? Don't get me wrong, marriage would be nice someday. Kids would be nice someday. But right now, I want to figure out who I am and what I want. I want to go to school, get an education, and have my dream job. I want to live on my own for a while. I want to experience life to the fullest before I jump into marriage. Because marriage is forever. Forever is a long time. I still feel weird. Maybe I'm not a true girl at heart because I'm not already setting a wedding date or learning how to cook and clean so I can please my husband someday. Oh well. 

Pandora, I love you

So I was listening to Pandora today while I was half-way studying for my Psychology final and it played me a really good Jason Aldean song that I'd never heard before. I thought I would take a study break and post the lyrics :)


"Waitin' at a stop light yesterday

As a funeral procession made its way
Through the gates,
I watched it roll up a winding road
Through a field of green
With white headstones all in a row,
And it made me think about where I'm at
On my not so straight and narrow path
All the generous and mostly undeserved
Blessings that I've had


I had an all-american mom and dad
Some of the coolest friends you could ever have
Found love I thought I'd never find
Sometimes I can't believe this life in mine
And I'm not plannin' on leavin' yet
But the truth is you just never know
And if this is as good as it gets
Man, I think I'm good to go
I'm good to go

I said a prayer for the dearly departed
And the loved ones left broken hearted
Then traffic started
And I drove away a little more able
To see the good things on my table
And for that I'm grateful
'Cause I've had my troubles had my trials
I've hit the mark and I've missed by miles
Had days that I've been fightin' mad
But the good times have more than
Outweighted the bad


Got to hold my newborn baby girl
And the hand of a man as he slipped from this world
I've laughed so hard I couldn't stop
Seen the sunrise from a mountain top
And I'm not plannin' on leavin' yet
But the truth is you just never know
And if this is as good as it gets
Man, I think I'm good to go

Yeah, I've been thinkin' bout where I'm at
On my not so straight and narrow path
And I wouldn't wanna change nothing about
This roll with the punches life I've had


I had an all-american mom and dad
Some of the coolest friends you could ever have
Found love I thought I'd never find
I can't believe this life is mine
And I'm not plannin' on leavin' yet
But the truth is you just never know
And if this is as good as it gets
Man, I think I'm good to go
I'm good to go
I'm good to go"

Today is Historical

Today will go down in history as one of the best days ever.
No, not because of Bin Laden's death, but because I have been surrounded today with the people I love the most and created some memories that will last a lifetime.
We couldn't get to church this morning because of all the flooding so I got to spend most of the day with them and they brought me back to school since my dad didn't feel comfortable with me driving on the roads.
I got a new NorthFace today, too. I told my parents I needed a raincoat so they took me to Hay's and got me one. I love it so much. I think I take advantage of my parents sometimes and the fact that they always make sure I have everything I want or need. I never have time to "want" for anything because they always supply it. Call me spoiled, but I realized today I need to appreciate them and all I have been blessed with a little more.
I also got to go to Downtown for the first time in weeks today (Yay for no homework!) and it was really good. I got to spend the entire evening with some of my best friends and we might be going to Memphis this weekend!
The highlight of my day? We were all in the Heritage watching the Presidential Address and had to sprint back to the dorm in the middle of a torrential downpour and we were SOAKED! It literally looked like we had just showered in our clothes. A great memory with the best friends, none the less.
Today, I thank God for the little things in life. The wonderful family I have, the material things I have been given, and for the amazing friends that have been placed in my life over the past four months. I am so blessed.